Tuesday, November 29, 2011

My Gettysburg




"There is always a possibility of change."


In 1863 during the American Civil War, the battle of Gettysburg was fought in Pennsylvania and was considered the turning point of the war. It largely decided which way our young and wild country was going to go. I am having my personal "Battle of Gettysburg" within as this is being written. I feel like since I have stepped on the path of the Light so many wonderful things have happened but yet so many horrible things still occur in the world. The darkness clearly has dominated this world for far too long and now that I am being called into darkness by continuing to interact with our society as it stands, I feel lost and alone and left here a man with his last bit of faith. I am asking for a major sign or intervention from the Light seeing as to how that is the only energy I ever want to serve but I cannot do it alone.

The following writing is written as a conversation between the Light, dark and myself. The Light will be represented in bold, the dark in italic and myself in standard writing. This writing is a display of me looking for continued faith and facing not only some of my own demons but more importantly the darkness that runs deep in every bit of our society as it stands. I need a sign and we all need healing. Enjoy.



Take my hand and feel alive!
(It will never work, you've tried)

I do feel alive!

I helped you see so you can be reborn and work for the righteous side
(Now that you see, are you willing to face us?)

Rebirth has given me strength and gratitude and I am willing to face the energy I once embraced.
Within my graces lies love, compassion and spiritual growth
(Love? Compassion? We can take that away and replace it with your darkest desires)

I desire nothing more than to continue to love and help others with their spiritual growth.

Believe in the power of the Light to carry you through the darkest night
(The Darkest night has prevailed through most of your species history, the light only knows temporary victory)

The dark has a point, we have been deceived and rendered powerless in the lights temporary victory. Light, how do I help that energy shift?

We need a powerful source of energy like you to help bring Love to the places that know only fear
(The world is too big, too many are asleep and the rest don't care. Good luck with bringing love cause around every Dark corner Fear will appear)

Again, the dark has a point, most people don't care or aren't willing to accept the truth. The darkness only has power because WE allow it to! Light, what do I do??

I empower your six senses, give you the gift of nature and the capacity to love and accept the love of another
(Your five senses are all you need, you're just an animal needing to feed the beast within. Nature can turn it's back on you and destroy everything you love. Loving another allows you to be betrayed and deeply hurt, it's better to feed your lustful desires)

Disrespecting Mother Nature and all that she brings causes a resentful backlash which seems to be a dark energy. Loving another and accepting their love has only proven beneficial in a world of trust. A world of truth and a world where darkness can't get to you have to take hold in order for a greater love tale to unfold.

You have seen through the Light the potential that lies within every single one of us, why do you question our power?
(You have also seen the unwillingness of your insipid and stupid species to wake up while the rest hang on to the past and cower. Why wouldn't you question the light's power?)

Light, it is true that I have seen the potential deep within each of us. So why do we stand here seemingly unwilling to accept positive change? Why are we willing to continue to let the dark reign?

The people will have to have faith that the Light can shine on all corners of the dark
(Without us the balance is impossible, we will always lurk waiting for a chance to strike)

The dark has a point, how do we balance? I am just looking for the Light to maintain the majority of control.
We are testing your faith, your ability to hold your Light
(Join us again, we will make you a Dark Knight)

Ability to hold my Light? In a world as twisted and dark as this? I am losing my faith and the devil is telling me he will put food on my plate. What do I do? I NEED A REAL ANSWER, LIGHT! I CAN'T KEEP WAITING ON YOU!...A dark night for a Light worker, a dark night for our world...it seems like the night never passes, I haven't had to use my sunglasses in a long time.

If you go back in the dark it will be harder to leave this time
(Come back to us, you understood us, we are your only friend)

I don't want to go back! I have found the gratitudes in Life and Love! But, the offer to reign free and be set up for life as a dark knight is banging awfully loud. I only ask for an answer to all the chaos around!

The answer will come when the time is right, just keep your faith and hold your Light
(It's been centuries that we have been dominating Earth with our control, how much longer do you want to wait? Why can't the light give you a straight answer? Dark Knight is what awaits you and all we require is your soul)

My soul, the one thing that determines my allegiance. In the darkest world that we live in right now it's become impossible to always walk in the Light but I do my best the only way I know how. Light, I am asking you for a better answer, a straight plea of clarity, a new way to want to get out of bed everyday and please don't take this as a threat, but if you offer me and my fellow humans nothing substantial then becoming a dark knight is the only choice I will have left.

The choice is yours, make the right one, follow your heart
(The choice IS yours, make the right one and have whatever you want)

It's always my choice and responsibility isn't it? Then I must live with what I choose. My heart says to keep serving the Light but when will we see the only thing that resonates deep in my soul and beats within the heart of me? The only thing I want is a world where we can Love, where we can evolve beyond our ego-driven pains and become what we are in our divine spiritual love. I have been given the gift of expression and I write every day, I take pictures and sing songs, I love to challenge the status quo and walk in nature to inspire while I play. Light, if you can hear me and if you can help PLEASE send me the tools I need to share my passions while being able to thrive in this dark world by helping me attain financial wealth. Bringing me money is using darkness for good, I don't know if you've heard but if there's no hope to do what I was put here for,to spread the awakening word and if I can't support myself then it'll be the only other energetic choice, in darkness I must serve.

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)


Written: Big Bear Lake, California 2011

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Wild FREE Spirit? Go WEST, Young Man!





“It should not be denied... that being footloose has always exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations, with absolute freedom, and the road has always led West." - Wallace Stegner


I could have not said it better myself. The most rugged, raw and fresh ideals have been discovered by those who have found themselves in the West. From California's golden beaches that graze the waters of the pacific, to Arizona's desolate and vision questing deserts, to the mysterious beauty of Utah's red rocks, it's Colorado's rock solid rocky giants that push far into the wild Montana skies that brings about an awakening. It's all the same when you lose yourself in the wilderness and spirit of the West only to find yourself for the first time deep within.

How could one define the West? By capitalizing the word itself shows an implication of it's power and gives it a sense of scope. That scope begins somewhere in South Dakota's Black Hills or at the edge of Colorado's Rockies. It takes you from New Mexico's magical high desert to the unique powers of Wyoming's Yellowstone. Oregon and Washington hold a magic deep within their moss covered greenery, a spirit of fairies and fire...but it's California that for me has seemed to have the best of all the Western states combined.

The words spoken of "Go West, young man" have been used in music, movies, books and other forms of artistic expression but it seems to not only apply to men but women as well and it appears to be the fuel of a free spirit or outside the box thinker.

On a level of intuition and spiritual guidance the West represents a place to deeply connect with one's inner voice, a place to discover one's own psychic abilities as it seems to amplify the laws of science and physics for many.

On a level of logic and intellect the West can create an environment to push people to see what is beyond the next mountain top or how to find beauty within a land that does not support the physical life force but only the spirit of a human, the desert.

In early America people arrived on the east coast in places such as Massachusetts, New York, Virginia and South Carolina. There was a time when eastern Kentucky's "Cumberland Gap" was considered the wild west. But it was the most rugged adventurists that forged the Oregon Trail from Missouri to Oregon or those that chose to look for gold in the mountains of Colorado and California. There is something in the spirit of adventure that the east and mid west both lack, a sense of originality and freedom would appear to be more stifled in many regions back east.

While I do enjoy certain areas in the east such as Pennsylvania, Michigan, North Carolina and Virginia none of them seem to hold the power of the states that stand west of the rocky mountains. For me, there is nothing better than driving across the great plains and deep into the mountains. I have done this on numerous occasions and have done so via South Dakota's black hills, Colorado's rocky mountains and New Mexico's high desert/Cimmaron Canyon.

The power that rushes within is indescribable as the straight line roads begin to twist and turn and the landscape starts to elevate almost as if you were ascending beyond just the physical realm. You can cross many miles of wide open spaces and all types of terrains before arriving on the golden coast of California, Oregon or Washington.

Back east there is a hustle and bustle, a repressive feeling in places like Washington DC, New York City, Chicago and Florida. A hurried, frantic and materialistic lifestyle. A sense of people lacking awakening to the adventures that are yet to be had in the wild west.

When I return to the west from back east I always feel a sense of adventure and gratitude, to know that I'm returning home to "God's country", to a place where people treat one another with an overall better sense of humanity, a place that speaks boldly, a place that doesn't have a disconnected negative attitude and a place where anything is possible.

When the people back east, who tend to be smaller minded and more negative tell the people in the West something can't be done or something isn't possible the people of the West say "Watch me!!". It's that very attitude from both parties that have paved the path they now walk. East represents complacency, a sense of settling for what was first discovered or what was first offered up to one's consciousness. West represents adventure, freedom, personal inner spiritual ascension, defying the odds of what people said couldn't be done and DOING IT(even in times much less technologically advanced than now), plus the scenery is far superior!

A friend of mine who is a native of Washington state once said to me while visiting her "We are the descendants of rugged pioneers, people who ventured as far West as they could go". This friend, who lives on San Juan Island which is about as far West as you can go in this country also said to me in response to me telling her everyone kept telling me to "Go West, young man" over the years; "Now that you've come about as far West as you can..go within, young man." and it's that very attitude from a native Westerner that speaks volume about what "Going West" or the magic of the West itself represents.

Many of my friends over the years have grown up in the east or mid west and have found home in places such as Colorado, Arizona and Washington. I love all of the West but it really comes down to California for me, it's the only place I have ever felt at home and without growing up in the east I would have never had the blessing of contrast to know just what I was missing but now that I'm here, I don't ever want to leave.

If you live in the east and are in search of answers that lie within, come visit any one of the wonderful western states and watch it change your life forever.

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)


Written: Big Bear Lake, California 2011

Thursday, November 24, 2011

When Love Came Knocking





When I couldn't forgive those who trespassed against me it was love that knocked on my door.

When I yet again couldn't forgive those who trespassed against me it was once again love that knocked on my door.

When I turned my back on love out of pain and a lack of faith in it's power, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I was full of hate towards the human mistakes made by children in a grown person's body because I couldn't perceive and have understanding for them, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I thought I knew it all and that things could never expand within my soul or get better, I was blind and could not see, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I had no compassion for the world around me whatsoever and my first response was to resort to violence and negative aggression, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I turned to the darkness for answers to free me from my shame and pain only to find more shame and pain within it's cold and colorless tunnels, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I cursed science and spirituality, when I said it was all non-sense and life was nothing but pain, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I was at my lowest point as a young teen and was putting the rope over the beam in the attic planning my exit, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I once spoke the words to a loved one "I cannot let go of the darkness, without it I feel lost and alone.", it was love that knocked on my door.

When I took part in the most shameful act of my life and could not forgive myself, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I fell in love right after coming out of a dark patch and opened myself up without restraint for the first time and trusted another person for the first time and was crushed by their decision to feed their fear, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I was guided to some of the best Lightworkers and teachers that I cherish more than words can ever say, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I chose to see my father after 9 years of resentment, anger and hatred for his foolish decisions when I was a child only to see he was still a child and he was the one who really missed out, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I was able to have compassion for my love when she exited my life abruptly and I struggled with feelings of betrayal and was able to see the little girl crying in a dark room that was her inside, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I was able to look at myself in the mirror for the first time absolved of guilt, shame, self loathing and able to recognize my personal power and where it comes from, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I decided to write this poem realizing that fear has never once lead me to a feeling of satisfaction and that living in misery only brings more misery, it was love that knocked on my door.

When I finally decided to open the door to see who had been knocking the whole time I was preoccupied with my own ego driven attachments to even notice the knocking, I found love standing there and it asked me one simple question I will never forget...





"What the fuck took you so long???"

And that's how love entered my temple. =:)

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)


Written: Big Bear Lake, California 2011

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Selling Our Souls: Divided & Conquered



What does it mean to sell your soul? How could one define the actions of giving your soul over to an energy you oppose?

I believe it's quite simple and yet we make it so complicated. I believe we complicate it to make excuses for our fears that we do not want to admit we have nor that we want to address.

Most everybody is afraid of the powers that be. The government, the corporations, the media, "Hollywood", the "societal norms". We are afraid to step "out of line" from what is perceived to be normal and within this lies the problem.

We are here as a creation of Source, our possibilities are endless and the sooner we embrace that the better off we will be. I hear quite often "Zac, you have a choice in this world, you can do anything." and while I know that is true in my heart about our creation of being human beings, I also know it is not realistic within the realm of the current world under the reign of evil.

Regardless of what new age people and fearmongerers alike(aren't they one in the same?)would like you to believe there is a great evil upon us but it's not to be met with fear yet meet it with as much love and compassion as you can. When diplomacy and resistance do not work then action needs to be taken but in order for action to be taken the humans of this planet have to be educated and awakened to what is going on and then when they are awakened they have to be willing to do something. So what keeps us from dethroning the illuminati and other evil in this world? What keeps most people in place?

Fear and Ignorance.

Those who are scared will not rise to the occasion and those who are not educated or are so brainwashed into believing that evil is not going on behind the scenes or that evil is whatever the truly evil tell people it is cannot see the forest through the tree's and act as such.

America has a major problem right now within itself. Most of us want to keep our eyes shut to what is going on within the world and for those of us that are awake we still want to keep our eyes closed thinking that good will wash away evil and that protesting within the guidelines of the system will be effective.

Good has never come and washed away evil on a global level regardless what fictional religious text may have claimed it to do so. However, history has proven that empires fall and that the only thing that has a chance at changing things is dealing harsh blows to the enemy. The best thing we can do is stop buying into what they offer us. Stop paying your taxes, stop buying their products, stop believing anything they tell you, incarcerate them for the crimes they have commited. These are great ideas but when a popluation has allowed the system to go into such a state beyond repair, something drastic needs to happen.

A radical change in life is truly the only change that is lasting and effective. When someone makes a small change the results are small. What you give out, you get back in regards to these type of dealings.

A lot of human beings cannot keep up with what is going on in the world and are unwilling to handle the shock of radical change. Those less evolved hold back the collective from moving into a world beyond boundaries.

The only laws we should be respecting are the "laws of the jungle" or in better terms not used by George H.W. Bush, the law of the Universe.

People suggest to me that sometimes you have to walk the line or bend your rules to make a difference and while I don't agree with that on an ineffective level(like going to college for paperwork when you are born with your calling and gifts or making excuses for the behavior of the evil people and choosing to stay asleep), I do believe bending the rules and walking the line works for major things of importance, such as the theory of "violence in all hands, embrace it if need be".

When you choose to play in a corrupt system that is run by dark energies you make a contract with the dark energies and you serve them, whether or not you want to make excuses or not believe that it is as simple as that. Dark compromises cannot be any other color. Shit cannot be called sugar.

So, if it's acceptable to detour in the dark constantly and bring light to the dark compromises for meaningless societal based shit within the current system, then it is just as acceptable to use the same dark energies to move the world and human species forward in evolution and not only is it "just as acceptable" it's more so and quite possibly the only level of acceptance.

Dark is dark, light is light and there are no levels of servitude. If taking the life of a person for reasons beyond self defense or self preservation is considered the darkest of behaviors then how do you compare it to sitting by idly for decades and even centuries while the evil people manipulate and deceive, stripping people of their very life essence and ability to see beyond the box? How can you justify logically, intuitively or rationally that acting in violence is a "bad thing" if it can bring about change?

Now, new age people and certain lightworkers would suggest that you cannot bring light with darkness, this is also incorrect. We as human beings weave in and out of the light into darkness and back into the light throughout our lives, there are things we would not learn without doing so. You CANNOT have one without the other, it's a system of balance and it's a Universal system, not a system created by man's ego. You can bring a positive change by using dark actions which I will give examples but first you must understand my "rabid dog theory".

A rabid dog running in the street is beyond healing, is beyond repair and is beyond help to return to it's path. We "put down"(which is a nice way of softening the word "kill")a rabid animal such as a dog if we judge it to be beyond repair and we also incarcerate human beings for a lifetime if we believe them to be beyond repair. Many of these human beings are simply victims of addiction created by the madness of this world and when they are caught for the third time, they are put away for life, this is called the "3rd strike rule" within our man-made system.

If a human being molests a child or murders someone "in cold blood" I do believe they may be able to heal on individual basis' and if our society embraced and wished to assist people with sicknesses such as the desire to murder, rape or molest then we may be able to bring Light to these people before they commit such terrible acts. Instead, we shun them, we shun everything that doesn't fit in the box that the evil people running and creating everything on a major scale say we should shun, we don't have understanding for one another or ourselves and we lack compassion.

If a child molestor or rapist decides to rape a child and brutally torture that child, would you not feel gratitude if someone(be it a police officer or someone else)were to come upon that situation and attempt to interfere and help that child? While in an ideal world I would like to see healing and help for both parties involved, in a spur moment decision I would have to embrace the third party and their decision to interfere on behalf of that young soul BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY! If it was your child being raped and soul stripped, would you not want whatever needed to be done to stop the offender? I would.

I would rather see healing for the offender and I would rather see the offender turn the other cheek and bring light into what they have done and face the music of the karma they have brought into their life but if they were unwilling to release this child from their grip, if they were unwilling to stop harming this then innocent soul, I would embrace whatever tactics needed to stop them, including violence.

Using the example of the child molestor and victimized child I will relate to all of you why I rage and how I feel towards the issue of the world and it is much larger than one offender and one victimized child, it's so much larger.

This planet, it's inhabitants from the human species to the animal kingdom to mother nature and every form of life inbetween play a purpose. I look at this planet and it's inhabitants as my teacher, as a place that should be given reverence, respect and gratitude. This planet, it's beings and truths ARE MY CHILD! Reverence for the parts of nature we destroy, the animals we use for food and clothing and the people that may have to suffer during unfortunate circumstances for survival, it's a very basic Native American-like philosophy of not owning the land, giving thanks to everything that gives its life for us, the essence of life that is consumed so we human beings can thrive, which is greatly error in doing at this current moment, though we are built to thrive.

When career politicians, corporate CEO's from all controlled industries, "dark shadow players"(people whose faces we don't see behind the scenes), Free Masonic Satanic cult whorshippers and all other faces of evil unify together and pull the veil over the face of the rest of the world, the rest of my fellow human species, when they have disrespect for animals through factory farming and using them for useless things such as fur coats. When they rape, pillage and plunder Mother Earth carelessly for their greed driven power profits such as oil, wood, water among other natural resources. When they denounce natural medicines and allow people to die, when they dope up people on "medicine" prescribed by their legal system to help and they make other natural remedies that cure illegal(such as Niacin injections for cancer patients and Stevia being used instead of sugar), when they sell us an idea of what we should be doing and put us in a box, when they send us to one another countries to kill each other for their entertainment and attempt to control commodities amongst themselves and exterminate the poverty population, when they brainwash scared child-like souls with control and often revenge driven issues into "serving their country" or "serving and protecting their community" and use them as disposable weapons against the rest of the poor population, when they harm everything that I love, when they rape every bit of what makes us unique as a species, when they snicker and sneer at the waste they create of animal life and nature life, when they lie to us and beat us down when we step out of line through millions of daily control tactics in every country across this globe, when they seperate the unification of people with imaginary lines, insipid ego driven songs, flags and a meaningless mantras that represent the latest fad or phase of a thing we call a "country", when they divide us amongst our sexual desires, our skin colors, our physical body shape, our reproductive parts given to us by a creator that they too came from, when they denounce doing what is good and having gratitude, reverence and compassion for the sacrifices of others be they human, animal or Mother Earth, when they do all this and more...when they do it...

...when they do it simply because they want to control, destroy, harm, manipulate and tear us from our true potentials as a species, as a living planet, as a one world community unified, there is no other way to put it than their behavior being downright evil, no way around it. If the things listed above are not the greatest crime ever commited, the biggest deception ever birthed, the greatest lie of all time, the true face of evil...then we are all existing in a world without purpose, which I refuse to believe and why? Because WE CAN FEEL. Some of us deeper than others.

When they take everything we have, all of our possibilities away and do not want to relinquish power the Light has to be brought in and just like the intervention used against the child molestor to save the already traumatized child, sometimes the same energy they use has to be enforced to shift the tide. The idea of us not revolting by any means we can is a fear tactic they instilled in us through morality.

Morality is an illusion. It is a creation of the illuminati to benefit their personal gain. They use it to keep us feeling guilty and in check. Our intuition is the only true compass and that compass seem's to guide with wherever we are looking to go.

If we are unaware I believe our inner compass guides us towards the Light and making positive choices that lift the vibration of our own existence and the world around us but once we are awakened to the powers of Light and dark we can make choices and things become complex. We are not perfect and it is unfortunate when people of integrity that follow their heart into the Light are forced to resort to acts of darkness or cruelty but it does happen to millions worldwide on a day to day basis.

So my point is, if we embrace dark choices for our benefit or the benefit of others at times, if we use that energy to balance our Light in order to "play the system" and learn how to work within it. Then why don't we do what it takes to move towards a truly better tomorrow. A tomorrow that no other has brought before us, a tomorrow that the baby boomers did not bring in the 60s and 70s, a tomorrow that every third world country has been unable to bring to itself, a tomorrow of self governance, a tomorrow that embraces both the Light and dark aspects of people, that brings awareness to the powers of both sides and lets people choose which to embrace, a tomorrow that knows the truth...

A truly awakened and enlightened person cannot embrace the darkness as their path, only one with Light in their heart knows the true meaning of being awakened and enlightened. They also know that we sometimes have to reroute for better things to come, we have to use that darkness for good, we have to stop evil in it's tracks and we have to learn to allow the flow to come to us. We talk about "letting go and letting God" but WE ARE GOD. We are the very Source of power that guides us, we are connected into all of that, we are not alone and each of us can use it for betterment of oneself, others and this planet/galaxy, even the illuminati that carries the darkness has a choice, but they may be beyond repair.

I know why I was put here, to explore. I am an explorer that has been blessed with a gift of incredible power of perception, knowledge, the ability to "sponge" all that is around me and process it and I have been given the incredible gift of expression through photography, music, being a visionary and idealist but most of all I was given the gift to write about what I experienced while on this planet in this incarnation of "Zac" with all six senses. We all have our gifts, each and every one of us and the sooner we get past every lie they tell us, as soon as we get past feeling that we can never step outside the lines, as soon as we accept that dark can be used for light(and in an actual manner that is effective)then we can know ourselves for what we truly are for the first time, we can know this world and the essence of our existence as we never have known it before...we can truly LIVE and PROSPER and we can then guide our incredibly lost "world leaders" to the same Light we have discovered and be their example.

"What is a bad man but a good man's job? What is a good man but a bad man's teacher?"

I want to be understood and usually never feel understood because I find myself evolved beyond the "veil of illusion" and it's largely because I chose to ask the questions. But I want to state flat out that even in all my rage, anger and resentment I do not endorse violence as a first resort and if anything, the idealist in me wishes it never has to happen and wishes that it never did happen in the past no matter how far back you go but I also observed history and learned that there are desperate times and measures that come up in life and that we have sat by idly for so long that now is the time to act while momentum is here.

I pray, hope and wish this revolution will happen and that it will be peaceful and non-violent but I do not believe that it will happen on the level it needs to nor do I believe it will be non-violent. We've done this before and it's not a matter of IF we will do it again..because we already are.

This is what happens when someone discovers their Light, value, true power and integrity, it's all of the emotions of spirit I express.

What we see in the world is what happens when those who hold the Light or those who are lost like cattle in between are guided by deceptive and manipulative evil every moment of every day.

Good intentions, holding our Light and praying to ourselves is not enough, we need to own our power! Intention is only half the battle, action is the other half and we are the force of creation we call God. It may only take one voice or one individual to birth an idea from the Source but it takes a mass majority to enact and enforce it successfully. Quit thinking the power is too big to change because it isn't. I will say that making them hear us is not enough because they have already factored in the actions we are taking. They have factored in that we will probably revolt but they haven't factored in that we may be able to have a mass awakening, what would they do if the majority of us said "no more". There wouldn't have to be much bloodshed if any and if there was it'd only be of those who will not give up the flame. Let them be the ones to die for what they believe in instead of all of us if it has to come to that. We are bigger than they allow us to be.

Don't you want to see this in your lifetime? Don't you want this for your children and the generations to come?

The evil dark energies and people have found a way to divide us from everything that we truly are therefore they have conquered us.

This is what causes us to sell our souls and it doesn't have to be this way but many factors keep us in the dark so as long as fear and ignorance reign, we will never know peace in this world, to our fullest extent within ourselves and we will always have to compromise which is just another way of saying...

Selling our souls. We have been divided and we have been conquered, now let's do whatever it takes to change it!

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)



Written: Quartzsite, Arizona 2011

Saturday, November 19, 2011

A Child No More




And as I rode through the Lake Mead desert into the amber sunset sky, twisting and turning down the winding roads with only a few hundred bucks left in my pocket, listening to soulful tunes on the radio I was hit with the biggest revelation since this years adventure began...and it spoke to my heart and said "you are a child no more", that is how the right of passage came to be. - Zachary Hill

"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me."

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)

Written: Lake Mead, Nevada 2011

An Awakening: The Valley of Fire

"THE VALLEY of FIRE" by Zachary Hill

The sound of silence, an oxymoron. The valley of fire speaks to me, it burns like the passion in my heart and soul. The wind is still and then it blows, it speaks to me letting me know I'm not alone. I have wandered through the cities noise to find myself returning back to where I started. A place where the fire burns on the valley floor, a place that my soul can breathe once more, with tears in my eyes I stare into the sun, I have overcome darkness after a long tour and learned to walk in the light. God spoke to me today in this fiery valley letting me know everything is alright. The floor of this place represents my charkas from root to the crown, it's rock solid formations are the body in which this valley lies. A place where the fire inside meets the sky.


-Zachary Hill 2011(C)


Written: Quartzsite, Arizona 2011

Friday, November 4, 2011

When All The Colors Bleed Into One

I took the road less traveled in search of what wasn't to be found on the main roads of life, only to learn that it was the main roads that lead me to the one less traveled.

I learned that all the roads of life are interconnected to bring me to the place that I now stand.

I have traveled millions of miles across the great plains through the burning deserts to the snowy mountain lands.

Every face I have seen, every soul I have felt, every city I have walked, every nature trail I have blazed and every place I have left my mark have all lead me to this.

A sensation of burning fire runs through my fingertips pressing hard into the keys with purpose like a passionate kiss as I sit in bed tonight to write this.

Uninhibited and without censorship I find my fingers unable to keep up with my souls poetic drift.

It was the back roads that lead me to the Light but it was seeing myself in the chaos of the main roads that cradled me during my darkest night.

It's easy to give up when you're afraid to stand up and fight. Maybe it's because we know that with any great love we risk losing our sight.

A sight that never is really lost but only relocated, put off for another time to test us and see if we become jaded.

It's as if my whole life is flashing in front of my eyes on this crisp evening spent in my favorite place in the world.

It's as if this "High Desert" is all for me, my love of the scarcity of life yet the altered state of beauty that is found in the lack of greenery, it feels so damn good!

Pain and heartache is what has driven me to run and suppress my own existence and deny my own passions.

Limbo is the dance done by those who don't fully understand that pain and loss create the opportunity for unconditional love and beauty.

Without all of the hell I would have never known heaven.

The scars on my soul shine brighter when I finally came to know, that it's the challenges of life that drove me to go on the back roads and it was on the back roads where I learned that it was actually the main roads that taught me everything I needed to know.

Ya see, I believe in the Kingdom Come and this is what happens when all of the colors bleed into one. I'm no longer running.

It was You who broke the bonds and loosed the chains and it was I who carried the cross of my shame.

I am no longer lost, I found what I'm looking for and it was right here within me all along.

-Zachary Hill 2011(C)


Written: Big Bear Lake, California 2011